New House....

We moved into our new house last night. I am still amazed at the fact I am living in UTAH! I never thought I would find myself here. Everything is a mess!!! But I know where the coffee pot is and that is a good thing...

Its a cute house, just enough room for the kids, and in a quiet neighborhood.

hoooray!!!

We got the house!!! yay!!! Its in West Jordan ( one of the nicest suburbs in Salt Lake City).. Thank goodness!!!! We are unpacking and setting up camp now.. Phew!!!!

Just a little Retail Therapy...

Nothing feels right. I love being here, but every attempt we have made to find somewhere has ended in a dead end.. I want to stay here. I will not go back to Oregon. I just want things to work out. I want to be near ALL my children and be happy at the same time.


I went to Gymboree today to get the boys a few things with my Gymbucks. I got a few cute things...

Then I went into Anne Taylor and bought myself a really sweet green, yellow and white sundress with coordinating cardigan that I cannot wait to wear!!!!

I went to Gymboree today to get the boys a few things with my Gymbucks. I got a few cute things...

Darienne got a cute new bikini that is lime green and black zebra striped and we called it a retail day.. I am so tired but I can't sleep.....

another disapointing day...

We had another disapointing day. The house I really had my heart set on we were denied. Blah.. Right now we have ONE house that we hAVE to get. I can't go back to Oregon. I need to move on with my life from here. I have to make it work here. A fresh start. I love it here, I just need a home. Another night staying in a hotel, waiting to hear back from the realtor. Please pray for us that we get this and the kids can get settled in. I am so broken right now. We drove around for a while and went to a park so some kids could play, went shopping for a while and pretty much just waited to hear back from SOMEONE.... I'm glad its sleepy med time. I can't take anymore of this day.... Tomorrow something has got to give..

more pics from today....

The Alamo

Today was a bad one..

We started the day out with NOTHING for Jack to wear (everything is burried in the moving truck). We drove to the nearest Baby Gap and got him outfited.

We had to meet the Realtor at 12 and about 1/2 mile from the rental the car STOPED and wouldn't work. We had to call a tow truck and have our Bronco and Uhaul trailor TOWED to look at the rental. The fuel filter was clogged?? Anyway, it just added to the wonders of the day.. I call it an intervention from God. Too bad it cost us $75 in the process..

The closer we got the more I felt it was a sign from God to NOT live there. Upon seeing the house I declared that I would not live there, but I did do a "walk " just out of polietness. The realtor was a douchebag. He kept telling that this was his nicest rental.

Now, I guess the whole story would make sense. David had contacted him a few weeks ago, and he had talked about having a lot of properties for rent in the Salt Lake Area ( around 50 ). Today he tells us this is the only one available now and its the nicest one, and its in a ghetto neighborhood. I have to share pics. Andrew thought it was the Alamo..

I am just thankful its bedtime.. I am ready for this awful day to be overwit

P.S. We are still in a hotel room.. I am tired of it. :/

Tomorrow we meet with a REAL realtor with a potential house that we looked at today.

Day #2

Sunday we got up and left Oregon, but only after I had my first cup of Starbucks for the day of course! Look how grumpy Darienne and I look!!! hahaha... We drove through Idaho, and I am soo glad I don't live there. Bleck! It was so flat, and blah..... Driving through it seemed to take forever and by the time we reached Utah the landscape changed to a little more interesting. Not exactly what I was imagining. We made it to Salt Lake last night and stayed in a hotel. The kids were zonked by the time we got situated..

The day I left...

Saturday was very big day for us.. We left for Salt Lake City, Utah. Things had been spiraling down hill for the last several months and it had become unbearable. Something had to give. So I did. I packed as fast as I could and loaded a u-haul and looked back at Eugene, Oregon for what felt like the last time. I tried to soak up as much wet and green as I could because I knew where I was going it would not be the same. It was a hard day, I cried a lot. I felt guilty. We drove until we reached Ontario, Oregon and stayed the night in a Holiday Inn.. I didn't sleep much but the kids seem to be pretty excited...

Fishing with the Boys...

Yesterday we took the boys (Jack and Matt) to the spot on the river where we spent our first day together. Justin and Matt fished while Jack colored and decorated himself with stickers, threw rocks into the river and I read..

The weather was gorgeous, and perfect for an outing..

I have definitely come full circle...

Easter....

Easter started early with knocks on our door from Matt and Jack, I opened the door in my sleepy face at a quarter to six and was informed by Matt that the Easter bunny had NOT come, but that it was just the things that Mommy had bought. Matt was digging around in my closet a few days before and discovered my baskets. I guess it was my Bad to have them ready and assembled and his bad for not minding and being in there. Either way, they got their Easter baskets..

We went to Church ( one we had never been to before) for the Easter Service and it was nice. Felt good to be there. There was no nursery, so Jack sat in the service. I'm glad I convinced Justin to go. He hadn't been to church in years...

We went to my parents for Easter after church.. The weather was so yucky the egg hunt was a mess. I didn't take very many pictures yesterday at all.. I am not myself right now...

Betty Crocker-itis

Its Saturday... I can't believe another Easter is upon us..
Yesterday the kiddos didn't have any school - Good Friday. We ran a few errands but spent most of the day at home.
I had good intentions of going to some of the local Easter egg hunts, but it just didn't work out this year. Last year, the "free" egg hunt at the local church was nothing short of chaos. People came out of nowhere like cockroaches and between the six of us, my children together found ONE egg. But we did enjoy watching the Veggie tales and the play that Matt's Kinder teacher was in, so it wasn't all a loss.
Andrew has a game today. I wish I could be there. The kids are all there watching. Justin has a project going in the backyard. He took an entire section out of our fence, and didn't want the house to be un attended while it is down, so here I am.
Ebay is going good. I am content with that, and should probably list some new auctions. I am just pacing myself.
I made cupcakes to take to my parents tomorrow for Easter dinner. I can't wait to frost and sprinkle them - its my favorite part. I am going to make some magic cookie bars in a bit to take as well. Definitely not my usual GO ALL OUT with the goodies but I am proud of myself for at least an attempt at normal-cy. I still have an apron on, so that should count for something.
I made Lasagna for dinner. Its Andrew's FAVORITE, and no one around here asks for it. I miss making it. Its all ready in the fridge to put in the oven. I feel somewhat accomplished today.
Its been a really hard last few weeks..

My Boys :)

Here are a few pics of Jack and Andrew at his Wenesday game. Jack is so silly and it looks like his dad has been letting him play in the dirt!!! He looks happy though ;)

Some more of Drew....

David sent some pictures of the boys at two of Andrew's games that we did not get to attend. The first set are from his second game where he was playing 1st base, and the rest are from his last game on Wenesday....

:/

Last night I pulled a white hair from my daughters hair. I didn't mean to upset her, she immediately went back to October and said "Its STRESS".... I shouldn't be pulling hair white hair from my 12 year old.. She shouldn't be stressed like this. Why her?

Its been bothering her more, she asked to be put back in counseling. I stopped taking her because she stopped wanting to talk about it. But she said she can't sleep, and its been on her mind a lot.

I just wish I could make it all better....

Andrew's First Game

Andrew had his first baseball game today. I was so proud. He played so well and looked soo handsome up there. Of course they won ;)