Matt and the Tooth Fairy

Matt lost another tooth Friday night. HE was soo excited and pleaded with him to wait. But it fell out and the tooth fairy was very sleepy that night.
She cleaned bathrooms, the litterbox, did lots of laundry and it was 3:30 before everyone was completely asleep and the tooth fairy felt safe enough to come out...

Happy Birthday To Me!

Yesterday was my birthday.. Today my un-birthday... Technically speaking - I was born on or about midnight on August 22 or Early August 23 in an emergency c-section and both my mother and I were so critical at the time of my birth, none of the attendents looked at the clock until after midnight. Since they had wheeled my mom into the room right before twelve they put August 22 on my certificate. This VITAL information is something I learned only a few years ago. Which leads me to wonder am I really born today?? Most likely.. So for the past four years I have two birthdays.. :) Which is good only if your NOT getting old..

I was bad yesterday.. The thing I wanted most, what I had not had in months. A triple shot caramel macchiato with extra caramel and extra foam. It was heaven in my mouth.. I enjoyed every drop, licked the straw ( as usual ) and for several hours I was buzzed on the esspresso zipping through my viens....

I went on a hunt for ebay shopping at the local thrift store. Here in Utah its called DI, or Deseret Industries. Its better than any thrift store I have ever been to, the selection, price and sheer volume is uncomparable. I have had so much fun buying from them. Last hunt we found a pair of brand new Oilily Jeans that we paid $3.00 for and I sold for $17.50. I can shop and then make a little extra money doing it.

It was hot yesterday. 104°. Originally the plan was to take the kids to the zoo, but there was NO way I was toting 4 hot and cranky kids around in that heat.

We went to dinner. Steak is always good. I love a good steak. I was really, really bad and ordered an appletini. I couldn't help it. Applebees - they are my favorite. Of course I felt silly, but that was as crazy as I get.

I am officially 32 now, anyway you look at it. I cried last night. I don't want to be old. I hate this part of life.

On a top note, I bought gap skirt SIZE ONE! when into a kid shoe store and bought myself shoes and found a kid gap sweater at the thrift store. So maybe after all I am really am still a that child I feel like I am inside ;)

A sense of getting somewhere!!!!

I just checked the mail and this came!!! I am sooo excited.. I don't have to pay the fees for the divorce. They will be waived and I can get through this. Its such a relief.. AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......... :D

Brownies and Cookies??

Thanks to Shanna who introduced this awesome product into my life. I finally, finally found it in the grocery store.. I guess shopping at Target all the time doesn't always pay off ( for the record I found the mix at Walmart :X )...

Darienne begged and begged me to make it all day long and finally I did. We waited for some piece and quiet and enjoyed them... Here is our story :P

Here I go....

Its Official...
I am naked without any medical insurance for the first time in almost 18 years. I went to the pharmacy counter last night to pick up three of my meds and discovered that my insurance was terminated the day before, and NOT at the end of the month as I had been aware of..

I am scared. My meds are a big part of my life. Without them I cannot function normally.

I cannot afford them by myself. Imitrex alone is $856.00 by its self.. That is essential.

Not to mention the other meds I have that are going to be more than I can pay and I will have to NOT have.. somethings GOT to give!!!!

Frustrations....

ACKK!!!

I am frustrated..

I just got off the phone with Child support. I swear they employ nit-wits down there. 8 months my case has been active and they haven't gotten to it. Infact he was completely fine about the fact I am getting less than $500 a month for 4 kids!! When I informed him that according to Utah he should be paying $1500, he asked me where I got that information. I told him the divorce papers, and that was their calculation. Now, he is telling me that since there is already an order for Andrew, Matt and Darienne for the amount set in 2002 I need to let Utah know. ACKK.. I really hope this doesn't put my case here up in any way.. I don't understand why they are so lame down there at Child Support Services in Oregon.
So here I sit, upset, nervous and really wishing I hadn't talked to the worker in Oregon. What good did it do, other than make me feel more insecure about things??
At least he did put an order in for the new job with the information I have been calling him incecently for the last TWO weeks. Way to go, If I had access to my information I would have done it back in freaking JANUARY!
I also gave him David's address.. He said he would have to confirm it, and it wasn't confirmed. Ok.. Thats great. Now, do your freaking job!! BLAH..

Ok.. :/ I'm just a little cranky now...

At least the boys are being good. Matt is taking a cat nap and Jack and Andrew are watching cartoons..

Sometime you feel like a Xanax, SOMETIMES you don't ;)

French Toast! :)

To Matt and Jack's encouragement I made French Toast for breakfast.. Something I haven't done in FOREVER. YUM! If I made it every morning oh how fat I would be :)

I am trying to do better today, but its a slow go. Laundry is going, so thats good.
I am fighting the urge to crawl back in bed and have the comfort and soothing feel of the sheets and pillows make everything better..

The boys are being good. Getting along and being boys. Darienne is sleeping in. No surprise..

I am reading the Stand (again)... One of those books that is big enough that it never gets old...

Now if I could only find the motivation to scrapbook today.. Thats what I need...

lost...

I need to get it together.. I am seriously slacking the engergy, motivation and desire to do much of anything these days..

I did manage to find my domestic side enough to make dinner and that is about it..

The laundry is piling up, the bedroom is littered with scrapbook stuff that I went through DAYS ago, but have since lost the want to do any... I should pick it up, put it away, but if I do that, when will I get it out again???

I made my bed, only to crawl back into it. I battled a migraine most of the day. I am low on meds and didn't take any thing for it.

I guess I am just feeling lost...

Blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ughh..

Another tag game with the child support worker..

I have been trying to reach him for the last two weeks off and on and I have given him information and YET he has still to update our information, contact me or anything. I won't get any child support until he does.. How frustrating...

LAME-O!

This poor woman is still dealing with this psycho... I can't help but LMAO at the title of her book and hope she makes $$ from it. It makes me sick that he has the nerve to even think he can sue. What a lame ass.. I might have to find this book and read it...

Here is the article c/p"

Joey Buttafuoco will be holding a press conference Wednesday to discuss his lawsuit against his ex-wife, Mary Jo Buttafuoco, and the "defamatory content" in her new bestseller, Getting It Through My Thick Skull - Why I Stayed, What I Learned, and What Millions of People Involved with Sociopaths Need to Know.
Such a fantastic title!!!!!!
Joey's lawyer claims the allegations made by Mary Jo in her tell-all are "venomous lies," primarily the "countless references… describing and diagnosing him as a sociopath."
His lawyer also goes on to say that the "defamatory statements are beyond the pale" and has transformed his client into "a pariah in the community, causing him not just public embarrassment but the loss of business."
Oh, boo-hoo!
Buttafuoco is not only suing his ex wife, he's also suing Publishing Company Health Communication Inc., the publisher responsible for distributing Mary Jo's book.
His affair with an underage Amy Fisher, charges of auto insurance fraud and picking up hookers tarnished Buttafuoco's name - not the book!

Pissy, Pissy!

Frustration.. The kids are home. They spent the night with their "dad" and Darienne has come home acting strange. She was mad at me because she wanted to go back and help him clean his house since it was a disaster, but the day we left I had it cleaned, vacuumed and there is no reason he can't get off his ass and throw HIS things away especially if he is only taking care of HIMSELF!!!! I am so pissed off right now..
Its Sunday, we are all supposed to be getting ready for church and Darienne wants to sit on her bed and ignore me. Be pissed at me, and I can't deal with it today.
So, Off I go, to get the boys ready, and myself halfway decent since this is the first outing since my hospital stay. I am kind of nervous about it....
Blah...
Can I go back to bed yet????????????

The Lovely Bones...

Finally!!!! My book is going to be a movie!!! I can't wait to see it. Its been years since I heard it would be going into a movie and finally this winter it will be released!

waste of time.

Yesterday was a full day. I had a dr. appointment ( who didn't do a freaking thing) It was a follow up from my Hospital stay and the damn doctor didn't even take my vitals. He was absolutely UN-Professional, UN-Personable and didn't give a rats ass how I am doing. He said I needed t0 be seen by a phychiatrist and that was the just of my appointment. Waste of time, waste of co[payment. Blah... How hard is it do get a dr. that actually cares about their patiends. Why was no blood work up done? and why the hell did they not take my sugar level??
Bllha.. As always I have pleanty to bitch about, but such is life.. He would no write me any RXs; and I am out of three rx's.. Its been more than a month.. I hate being treated like this. Its retarded. My Doctor is out of town and I got some towel head to treat me yesterday. Yes, I know its a racial slur but when I have been going to the doctor for almost 20 years, and have him not only deny my whole relationship with their doctor, Meds were my purpose for going to keep my migraines in check. So, this is my life.. I have four pain pills left to get me until When??? You better believe the next migraine we aer going to the er and they can treat me there, A-hoes
My insurance is ending at the end of August. I am terrifed..
I also had the divorce papers turned in yesterday while we were out and about and filed that he has recieved the documents. 30 days from now and it will be over.. Strange to think..

Darienne was babysitting with Andrew but decided to go to their dads and we met them in the parking lot of our aptartment building heading out. Really kind of confusing because we were NOT expecting the kids to leave...

But it was a nice, quiet night were we layed in the living room all snuggled up watching Animal Planet ( lol ) and wound up in bed watching Hide and Seek before I totally konked out.....

My vision is still really blurry and I am having a hard time with my balance. I keep fallling over and there is nothing I can do, exept try and not do what is it I am supposed to do. I can't read my scripture yet, its too blury

BUUT!!!! On a happy Note, I am feeling devious today and want to get a Startbucks.... Its been MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I can justify it :)

Last WWI Veteran :(

WOW.. I am just getting really old.. I can't believe this is it.. I remember when there were still Civil War Vets still around!!! This is amazing/incredible/sad all at the same time. How honorable that he is being recognized.. C/P caption and article below:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090806/ap_on_re_eu/eu_britain_last_tommy

The coffin of Britain's last World War I infantry veteran Harry Patch, is carried away after his memorial service at Wells Cathedral in Wells, England, Thursday, August 6, 2009. As a mark of reconciliation, soldiers from Britain, Belgium, France, and Germany, at left, walked behind the hearse carrying the coffin as it was driven through Wells, where thousands of people lined the streets to watch the funeral procession of Patch, who died aged 111, and who was a veteran of the Third Battle of Ypres in 1917

Scrap Fever

I am trying really hard to be positive.. I am surrounded by my scrapbooking totes and trying to organize what I have left. I think I feel some scrap-i-n-g coming on!!!! :D

Blank...

So.. I have been sitting here thinking a lot about what has transpired over the last week.
I left my apartment on Friday night in an ambulance and woke up almost three days later, with no knowledge of being totally unconcious for that time. When I woke, I thought it was a few hours, not a few days..
I can't imagine what it was like. I don't remember any grand close to death light at the end of the tunnel. It was just Blank. Painless but blank.
When I woke up, I have been slowly relearning my motor skills... I can type better today, the first day back home, it was like Jack typing. I still can't read ( unless I make the font HUGE), everything is really blury and I am really thirsty all the time.

Snake!

So this is the snake that caught my eye and I made Justin stop so I could get a closer look at it. Seriously, I am terrified of anything that slithers but there was something intriguing about this one. We stopped to pet her for about 20 minutes, even got Darienne to pet her. Jack had a ball, and Me... Well... At least I got close enough for a touch... Something I have never done.. Something my Andrew would have enjoyed.

MIA

Ohh its just me... I'm back from a 5 day vaction to the ICU but things are looking much brighter.. I can't remember being an inpatient without having a baby involved, but I made due.
My blood sugar was uncontrolable - 390. Bleck.. I received insulin shots for two days. My arms look like I fell victim to a mad scientist. I have bruses and marks all over them from getting new iv lines and shots.. My fingers are tender because they were checking my blood sugar that way. Finally they managed to keep it under control earlier today and I got to com home.
It was an awful experience, most of which I was not conscious or can remember. I went in Friday and I woke up yesterday. Where the time went I will never know.
My blood pressure was off the wall high and my pulse rate went as high as 160 ( resting! ).. Can we say STRESSED A LITTLE??
But I am home now, safe in bed, next to my Jack and Justin and just waiting for Mr. Sandman to bring me some dreams so I can follow..