Back to Utah (the first time)

Our trip back to Utah started off typical. The pictures explain it all:

We hadn't left the driveway and Jack was crying and saying that Darienne had called him names...

We stopped a few times down the road. We found some rocks at a potty stop and even Darienne got into it. There was obsidian everywhere and Darienne found a big rock that she is bound and determined to sell it on eBay to make some money for her shopping habit ;)

It was a nice trip.... The rain followed us from Oregon all the way to Utah. It felt so good to be back even though we had a trailer full of stuff to unload and unpack and the Tahoe was packed full of stuff.

I went back to the house and got the rest of the things from David's house. It was chaotic. Most of Jack's clothes are missing and I gathered alll of my things that I had taken with me.

There is probably a mis-conception about why and what I was doing there, and why my thingshad to be retrieved. Put simply, I went to Utah with David and the kids and less than five days later I had to leave. Jack and Darienne came with me and Matt and Andrew remain with him for now.

Any respect I had for David is gone. If I thought he was an asshole before, it is nothing compared to how he treated me in the few days I spent with him. I left Oregon in short notice, leaving Justin a goodbye letter and I didn't think things could go on anymore. I went to Utah with David and the kids because he was going, taking Andrew and I saw it as a way out. It wasn't and I regreted my decision from the time I left Eugene. I spent most of my two and a half day trip in a prescription drug induced haze that can only be recalled through pictures and Darienne's testimony.

Justin found my letter when he got home later that day and quickly figured out where I had gone. He dropped everything and drove straight to Utah to find me. I had talked with him briefly via email a few times but we had no idea that we were that close.

The night of the "alamo" we both stayed in the same hotel with NO knowledge of either one staying there.

The day before I left David's house we had been fighting for days and I just wanted to get out. I got ready for the day, put a few extra things in my purse and told David I was going to go for a walk. I did, but by that time I had contacted Justin to help me and he rescued me yet again.

Now I am back to square one, trying to rebuild my relationship with Justin and trying to keep myself together. We found a lovely townhouse just a few miles from David's house and the kids will be able to go to the same school district no matter who they live with.

Our first trip back to Utah we managed to bring a few things but we are really starting over. Its a new life and we are LOVING Utah......

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